have i really spent too much time for dance?
i truely wonder.
take my pace one at a time.

i need sleep. sleep. and more sleep.
i hope my throat gets better. flu gets away.
i want to be healthy and strong and energetic and be happy

your sudden attitude caught me unprepared.
you HATE me for doing so, so do you even know that i am having the same reaction as when i did that to you?
and! i wasnt like you were okai? my attitude WAS NEVER that bad like yours yesterday
you said you were my friend
but a friend who can just turn your back and walk away even before explaining what has happened
is that really what everyone call, a friend?
sorry, im hot headed. just like you are.
perhaps you dint know.
perhaps you dint know im stubborn too.
in any case, if you dont know. i truely think that you thought too simply of this friendship.
you thought you know me, but maybe actual fact you dont know me at all. perhaps. perhaps

you say it was for my own good
but you being my friend, i thought u will accept me
my friends [who are true] around me ACCEPTED ME! NOT because they dont wan things good for me
i truely think, you picture friendship as something too simple
you cherished those people that you often hang out with
but. ask yourself. are you even emotionally attached to them?
think it through.
if no. they arent even what you call your friends.
got me?

your approach of wanting things to be what you say is “good” for me. is wrong
total wrong.
you thought by doing the way you did, is best for me?
on the other hand, i think its not even a little working at all.
it just got me thinking.

people have different perception.
your way of handling stuffs and seeing things is perhaps too “straight”
you can only see one route
but there’s another way of looking at things,
there is another path, somewhere around the corner.

i treasured this friendship.
but. now i wonder. what for

and! if you dont agree to what i have typed above, our frequency is really off
not even meeting at any point
well maybe not “agree-ing” to it. but rather just understanding my mentality and perception

if!! you can accept me as who i am.
accept.
else.
like what i told you. choose your friends properly in the future.
sarcasm?
yes! it carries it

think it through then come talk to me.
its pointless if your hands are not even meeting mine for the clap.

Give some time, i told myself

 
  
CallCentreManagement;lastoneofthesemester

将麻木一阵
让自己试着变成一个不会用太多情感的人
或许我比较适合当一个不懂爱和不懂得怎么爱的人

媚情
变无情吧

将花费我一切爱的筋力在我家人和朋友

世界。我会学着放过自己
尽量让自己变得比从前快乐。

and anyway. Mackilicious got into finals. i dont know am i supposed to be glad or what, well. because all groups got through apparently. in any case. the Mackies have decided to strive and walk towards our goals. Mackies. we can do it (: last chance for us.

oh oh! haha ! something random ((: i have got one new cute guy (: earthie and i agreed that he’s “the” cute one baby ((: shhh not gonna tell tell. but identity big hint, BLUE. [kindda obvious already]
i wish for smiles to appear across my face naturally
i have yet to find a reason not to blame myself

den had some photo shots when we suppose to be studying. we started to idle around awhile..
when we moving from terminal 1 to terminal 3. there’s this small area which has the sign, reminscing terminal 1. den i said. it seems like im reminscing something else instead. so whatever. after slacking at terminal 3. went to terminal 2 to study at McDonalds. rekindling my secondary 4 chionging O levels days. (:
nice. and so refreshing.

just returned home not too long ago.
tired. due to lack of sleep. slept late last night, with the companion of chocolate and red bull -.- but seems unhelpful. i hope i wil have all the sleep i want after my exams. but then after will be attachment, will i really have my beauty sound sleep? well i wonder. . 1 more proper day to chiong for lime.
afterwhich. studies. please be my priority!!!

anyway. some pictures i took from midodo

        
ugly face there is                           i definitely look like one tourist! haa

           
reflection                                        my crown; my candy empire

i need to feel more to like a star, will the choreo be made justice.
SMU-ing later in the night.

chiong ah! mackilicious!
yougirlsaremylove.includingnana! (:

in anyways, im glad you are still here. for me.

So I put my arms around you around you
And I know that I’ll be leaving soon

My eyes are on you they’re on you
And you see that I can’t stop shaking
No, I won’t step back but I’ll look down to hide from your eyes
’cause what I feel is so sweet and I’m scared that even my own breath
Oh could burst it if it were a bubble
And I’d better dream if I have to struggle

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
And I hope that you won’t hurt me

I’m dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music’s the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists

So I just put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
And I hope that you won’t hurt me
My arms around you they’re around you and I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
They’re on you My eyes…