im falling ill and im feeling weak and im in serious lack of sleep and rest.
during these whole period of time. i have never stopped having lack of sleep.
initially was projects. den examinations. now attachment.
altogether with dance.
have i really spent too much time for dance?
i truely wonder.
take my pace one at a time.
i need sleep. sleep. and more sleep.
i hope my throat gets better. flu gets away.
i want to be healthy and strong and energetic and be happy
i know you will see my blog, and this is meant for you
your sudden attitude caught me unprepared.
you HATE me for doing so, so do you even know that i am having the same reaction as when i did that to you?
and! i wasnt like you were okai? my attitude WAS NEVER that bad like yours yesterday
you said you were my friend
but a friend who can just turn your back and walk away even before explaining what has happened
is that really what everyone call, a friend?
sorry, im hot headed. just like you are.
perhaps you dint know.
perhaps you dint know im stubborn too.
in any case, if you dont know. i truely think that you thought too simply of this friendship.
you thought you know me, but maybe actual fact you dont know me at all. perhaps. perhaps
you say it was for my own good
but you being my friend, i thought u will accept me
my friends [who are true] around me ACCEPTED ME! NOT because they dont wan things good for me
i truely think, you picture friendship as something too simple
you cherished those people that you often hang out with
but. ask yourself. are you even emotionally attached to them?
think it through.
if no. they arent even what you call your friends.
got me?
your approach of wanting things to be what you say is “good” for me. is wrong
total wrong.
you thought by doing the way you did, is best for me?
on the other hand, i think its not even a little working at all.
it just got me thinking.
people have different perception.
your way of handling stuffs and seeing things is perhaps too “straight”
you can only see one route
but there’s another way of looking at things,
there is another path, somewhere around the corner.
i treasured this friendship.
but. now i wonder. what for
and! if you dont agree to what i have typed above, our frequency is really off
not even meeting at any point
well maybe not “agree-ing” to it. but rather just understanding my mentality and perception
if!! you can accept me as who i am.
accept.
else.
like what i told you. choose your friends properly in the future.
sarcasm?
yes! it carries it
think it through then come talk to me.
its pointless if your hands are not even meeting mine for the clap.
Industrial Placement Programme.
coming in just less than 5 days.
maybe i should have requested on going overseas.
run away from this land which bring all sorts of emotions that’s gonna take me a ride on a rollercoaster.
anticipation; unpredictable; sudden; full blast shockness;
i need to take a stroll on a beach; with the imaginary you
Lord, please consider taking me by your side
Take away all my regrets
Take away all my bad
Take away all my sadness
Give me the happiness that i once dint cherish and hold it close to me
I should leave..
But…..
people gain something when they lose something.
for me..
i lose my happiness; i gain misery
Give some time, i told myself
CallCentreManagement;lastoneofthesemester
当一个人不懂得怎么爱，他就没有资格去爱
将麻木一阵
让自己试着变成一个不会用太多情感的人
或许我比较适合当一个不懂爱和不懂得怎么爱的人
媚情
变无情吧
将花费我一切爱的筋力在我家人和朋友
世界。我会学着放过自己
尽量让自己变得比从前快乐。
its just 70 and a half hours more for my last paper to be over. goodness me i do not have any motivation at all to studie. been missing out on marketing research and public relations lecture. though i may go for class at times, but all i did was daze around be in my own world. to be frank a little regretful. maybe im not cut in studying too. i have to reconsider my future now. remembered last week, just before my first paper. i was all occupied in the mind about something else. i hope that i can cast all unnecessary thoughts this time round.
tomorrow paper is at 4pm. and here i am. barely even reached even one quarter of what im supposed to cover. damn dead! slept alot today. need motivations and refreshing mind.
and anyway. Mackilicious got into finals. i dont know am i supposed to be glad or what, well. because all groups got through apparently. in any case. the Mackies have decided to strive and walk towards our goals. Mackies. we can do it (: last chance for us.
oh oh! haha ! something random ((: i have got one new cute guy (: earthie and i agreed that he’s “the” cute one baby ((: shhh not gonna tell tell. but identity big hint, BLUE. [kindda obvious already]
i wish for smiles to appear across my face naturally
i have yet to find a reason not to blame myself
so yesterday i went to the airport to studie with midodo.
met her at terminal 1’s popeyes while we ate and studied. and certain memories start coming while i pushed them away.
then we went to terminal 3 to get chocolate from candy empire and stuffs.
got something from movenpick. wanted to pass to one of my friend, but yeah no chance to so. whatever.
then i was searching for my caramel kit kat! hee ((: got it from a pharmasy, Watsons! haa. NTUC doesnt sell caramel kit kat. lousy!
den had some photo shots when we suppose to be studying. we started to idle around awhile..
when we moving from terminal 1 to terminal 3. there’s this small area which has the sign, reminscing terminal 1. den i said. it seems like im reminscing something else instead. so whatever. after slacking at terminal 3. went to terminal 2 to study at McDonalds. rekindling my secondary 4 chionging O levels days. (:
nice. and so refreshing.
just returned home not too long ago.
tired. due to lack of sleep. slept late last night, with the companion of chocolate and red bull -.- but seems unhelpful. i hope i wil have all the sleep i want after my exams. but then after will be attachment, will i really have my beauty sound sleep? well i wonder. . 1 more proper day to chiong for lime.
afterwhich. studies. please be my priority!!!
anyway. some pictures i took from midodo
ugly face there is i definitely look like one tourist! haa
reflection my crown; my candy empire
1 paper will be down by 6pm on 14 August, which is today lar. haa
last few hours to chiong (: gambatte sabrina!!!!!!!!!
i need to feel more to like a star, will the choreo be made justice.
SMU-ing later in the night.
chiong ah! mackilicious!
yougirlsaremylove.includingnana! (:
i have really too many on hands.
but anyhow.
to that person who has always been there.
i thank you. alot.
you have always trusted me. and cared for me unconditionally.
but i was a disappointment.
in anyways, im glad you are still here. for me.
Time is gonna take my mind
and carry it far away where I can fly
The depth of life will dim my temptation to live for you
If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears
’cause it’s all about love and I know better
How life is a waving feather
So I put my arms around you around you
And I know that I’ll be leaving soon
My eyes are on you they’re on you
And you see that I can’t stop shaking
No, I won’t step back but I’ll look down to hide from your eyes
’cause what I feel is so sweet and I’m scared that even my own breath
Oh could burst it if it were a bubble
And I’d better dream if I have to struggle
So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
And I hope that you won’t hurt me
I’m dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music’s the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
So I just put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
And I hope that you won’t hurt me
My arms around you they’re around you and I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
They’re on you My eyes…
